Pain (Poem)

I don't really know how to express it, so i stumbled before due to my clumsiness

of not having the knowledge to express it, and im still in the void of this Unknown!

I Hope I'll know this someday, but who knows? I maynot!

My Curiosity, I just wanna know the truth, my pity, sometimes i believe im gonna find the fruit!

and theres happiness and joy, like a free pirate drank & sang "ahoy",

forgot all worries n went for the mystery...

But I feel the world has changed, it's caged and now its History!

Even if i know the truth someday, I still wonder, will it ease my Heart?

what if it were better, i didnt know it.

we all wanna dance in the drizzle, try,you'll find fun, but it can get heavy,

Beware! It's dangerous, the Rain!

Yeah I may've known something, too many of 'em, not all, but it's like the Universe,

the Brain!

But still my heart doesnt obey, it wants to know, and what if I knew that all there was,

was Pain!

What could i possibly gain? The cain? So now i don't want anything, anything at all.

Still these dreams i have, i feel precious, i can't give these away, i'd give anything i could, to pay, to whom i owed, like some fools n would even fray, okay?

I just want to if i can, or i'll refrain. I could abandon everything i have, but still not my truth, so if i know that yuo're filled with malice, doing wrong, doing treachory & doing harm with great enjoyment, great desire, I'll seize everything, won't even leave behind a single grain. If u'd run, i'd chase u till the ends of the world, or my life, it's all in vain.

I want nothing from u as you're good as well & you might have things you treasure,

I'm starting to find good in all, even those in hell, but that i don't know, what tomorrow may grow.

And still, this bitterness remains, 

& this silence excruciates... like loud sounds of trains.

and i'm drowning into the void of nothingness; anger, fear...

I can't find any reason to smile now, still u all say i must.

How? It's just hilarious...

Just why dont u let me burst?

Just How can i quench my thirst? But first,

please tell me what u know of, i'd like to hear ur story too, nomatter how long. I don't care if u think u're way too bad, i'll just find my bong,

i dont care if u sell ur stuff, sell ur skills or dance for them, u're not wrong,

it dont matter even if u've pierced ur toungue,

did u forget,it was pain that made u strong?

And then we'll just sing a song of our memories and joys, nostalgic moments already gone,

Excruciating anguish and pain yet to come.

Yeah, I remember ur love, but still I'm dragged down by the blues.

So now will u just teach me how to live?

cuz i've already forgotten. I even wonder now, is it right for me to express it? cuz i can't find any good way to express my sorrows, express my pain, my fears, my rage,

that's caging me, this chain, its blocking me to work for the future,to fight n to train.

Now the flame's starting to burn me, n the rain's starting to hurt me! i'm breathless, i wanna be free, i'm tired, and i dont care about the rain... just let me sleep in the shadow of this tree, and i don't want you to see, me being so... so terrible! im just like you, like he, or she, yet i want to be me, i wont plea, but still, fight to be free.

what i am, what i've been, i have no desires to show, but still i want u to know!

i dont know ur sorrows, so how can i know ur love? i'll be kind to u, cuz i dont know what u've faced in ur life, but just let me go, as i've got something to do, i've got a family, i've got friends, gotta face reality, and i've got dreams,

plus, i'm off in search of the grain, yet all i can find is pain!

I wanna cry so bad, but my tears, sometimes, they don't fall. i don't remember how many of my treasures i threw, but when u look at me, I hope i can smile at you!!!!

-Sachét